The days leading up to my first day at the new job were full of anxiety. Sure, I was excited to be starting, but at the same time I’ve been putting an incredible amount of pressure on myself. I want to do well at my job, and I want to succeed. I want to save money, and retire comfortably. I want to travel, and live stress-free with that special someone. Turning 32 later this year has really scared me. I’m nowhere near where I thought I would be at this age, and while I know that the chances of settling down and retiring somewhat comfortable are pretty good, I still can’t help but stress out about where my career will be in 5 years, if my retirement accounts will be where I want them to be, and how I’ll know when I’m ready to do all the adult things all my friends seem to be up to.
I think we’ve all felt like this at some point before. It’s normal. And when I get those feelings, I just need to take a step back and evaluate all the positives I have in my life. It’s so easy to get caught up in what we don’t have, or what we want to have… instead of what we do have. :)
As for the first few days at the job? Well they’ve been great so far. It’s weird to be working within a marketing team – I’ve been so used to working by myself over the last few years, and I missed this team atmosphere we have going on. I imagine the next few weeks will be filled with trying to remember the names of people around the office, getting comfortable with the different tasks I’m given, and figuring out how I can best contribute based on my skill set.
I was unemployed just long enough to receive one EI payment, and that actually happened yesterday. So that means I went 40 days between when I lost my job, and when I got my first payment. I was worried it would take a lot longer than that – the first time I applied for EI it took 11 weeks! The $408 I received isn’t a lot, but it’s definitely welcomed. And I’m actually pretty pleased that I got through my entire unemployment without having to touch my Emergency Fund! Granted, I likely won’t get paid until mid-April, so there’s still a chance I might have to use that cash if I can’t make up the difference with my freelancing.
Speaking of freelancing, I’ve had a pretty good few days. I received a $750 payment, and have billed out for an additional $1,450 just this week. I likely won’t receive those payments by the end of March, but at least it’s putting me on the right track for a decent April. :)
Anyway, that’s the update in my world!
The last month has been a bit of a roller coaster for me. I was really scared that it would take me a long time to find a job that I’d be happy with (in my head I was thinking I’d be unemployed until April), but yesterday the right opportunity came along, and I am thrilled to be able to write that I am now employed. :)
My new job is in a completely new industry to me, but it’s with a company that I have admired for years. I respect the work that is being done, and the role I’ll be taking on is somewhat new to the organization. I can see how I would be able to grow with the position, and that’s an exciting thought. The salary range will end up being around the same as what I was making before, so in terms of my goals for the year, those shouldn’t change too much (aside from the few weeks’ salary I lost while without a job).
I am really looking forward to getting back to work. Spending the last 4 weeks by myself during the work week has been a bit lonely, but my support system here in Vancouver is strong. And I made it a point to stay as positive as I could – even when all I wanted to do was stay in bed and mope. So now I’ve got 1.5 weeks just to relax and get ready – not to mention a trip to Portland in just a few days. :)
So thanks for sticking around during the last month. I needed the break from blogging and social media to focus my energy on staying sane and job hunting. But I am back, and with a renewed sense of purpose. And there’s a lot to look forward to. First up is getting my RRSP/TFSA contributions back on track!
Eight years ago, I was fresh out of college and eager to start my career in marketing. My first job was an entry-level position with the provincial government. Six months later, I was able to leverage my experience and earned a marketing position within municipal government.
From there, I ended up in Vancouver, worked for a few amazing companies, moved to Europe, pursued a freelance writing career… and eventually found myself back in Vancouver where I landed an amazing job as a Marketing Manager.
The first eight years of my career has certainly seen its ups and downs, and unfortunately this is one of those “down” moments. Due to downsizing, my position – along with many others – was eliminated yesterday. So now, I find myself unemployed.
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At first I was really, really sad. Which is obviously a natural reaction. I enjoyed the people I worked with very much, and the thought of not seeing them every day is hard to deal with. I know I’m going to miss the diverse, challenging work – and it’s a company I truly believed in. I also felt bad for the other people that got let go. They have mortgages and families to take care of. It’s going to be difficult for everyone. Then I became angry – but angry at myself, and that was the wrong emotion to have. I kept thinking about what I could have done differently, and whether I just didn’t work hard enough in the year I was there. I felt stupid and useless. But truthfully, there’s nothing I could have done to prevent this from happening, and getting laid off isn’t a reflection of my skills as an employee either.
It’s been a tough 24 hours as I tried to process what happened. Lots of tears and frustration and pep talks. But that’s life. There are bound to be tough times, but it’s how you deal with those situations that defines you and makes you into a better person. Most of you know that I’ve been laid off before by a company, so I know what to expect. I know the roller coaster of emotions that comes along with losing your job, but most importantly I also know that I always come out of situations like this stronger than before. BF said if there’s one thing he’s learned about me is that I’m resilient, and my mom reminded me that, even in this poor job market, I’m still employable. I landed this last job within 4 days of arriving home from Germany. Not that I’m expecting that kind of result again, but despite how bad I feel now – just a day after this has happened – I know that unemployment won’t last forever.
As for my finances, of course this changes a lot of things. I’m eligible to collect Employment Insurance, so I will be applying for that after I receive my last pay cheque and severance pay (2 weeks). I’ll have to suspend my RRSP/TFSA contributions and long-term savings goals until further notice, and I have my Emergency Fund if necessary.
So that’s that. I’m going to work hard every day to prove to myself and my future employer that I am a skilled and valuable asset to any team. I’m going to stay positive, stick to a routine, and start networking. I am good at what I do, and there’s a company out there waiting to hire a person just like me. I know it. :)