Over the past few weeks I have been feeling completely overwhelmed, and I feel like the process of breaking up with someone has somewhat overshadowed most of the excitement I should be feeling as a new home owner. And both events combined have turned my life into a crazy emotional roller coaster. But spending the weekend at home playing field hockey, and hanging out with family and friends has helped a lot.
When I was home on the weekend, I spent a few minutes rummaging through some boxes in my old bedroom. There, amid the dusty papers, I found something I wrote when I was 15 years old. It was my personal philosophy, and what I hoped to achieve when I became an adult. Kind of deep for a 15 year old to be writing on their own, so I can only assume it was for a class assignment. Reading it was just what I needed. It made me realize that I’m a strong person, even when I’m at my weakest. And I will be a stronger and better person once I come out of this stressful time in my life.
My personal philosophy is simple: I can accomplish anything I want to, no matter what the odds are. It doesn’t matter if other people believe in me or not. Because in the end, the only person who I need to believe in me, is myself. When I grow older and I look back on my life, I want people to think of me as a person with integrity and determination. I want to put 100% into everything I do, no matter how hard the task is. I never want to conform to what other people want or perceive me to be. Hard times are nothing but a challenge waiting to be accepted! I am who I am, and I can achieve anything I want.
So if my 15-year-old self believes in me, then I need to believe in myself too.
From the thoughtful blog comments, kind emails, and support I’ve received on Twitter, I feel extremely grateful to be a part of such an amazing blogging community. A big thanks to Amber, Money Rabbit, Fabulously Broke, Cupcakes and Cash, and Dogs and Dollars (aka Blonde on a Budget) for being there for advice and support when I needed it the most. You gals are the best!
After having the weekend to really reflect back on what an insane last few weeks I’ve had, I know I made the right decisions for my future. And while I’m far from perfect, I figure that I must have at least a few qualities in me that eventually somebody will like and find attractive. So for that reason, I’m hopeful that one day, I will find love again. A few nights ago over tea, a friend reminded me of that old saying – that love will come when I least expect it – and he’s right. So until that day comes, I will work on being as strong as I can, improving myself, and figuring out my next big goal in life.
Sorry for the small blogging interruption! Please stay with me, and I promise that I will be back to regular personal finance blogging shortly. :)
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