What’s your New Year’s Resolution?

I can’t believe 2008 is already over. This year has gone by so fast – and so much has happened!

Financially, I think I’ve said it before, but I’m not in the place that I thought I’d be in. According to my NetworthIQ, my networth in January was $18,814, and my networth now at the end of December is $26,695. That’s a difference of $7,881. Not too bad considering I started the year off unemployed, moved twice, made considerably less than I’m used to for the majority of the year, and did a bit of traveling (Detroit/Toronto, Las Vegas, Edmonton, Calgary, and Seattle 3 or 4 times).

From a personal point of view, 2008 has been a great year. My relationship with BF is amazing and continues to get better, and I’ve made some good friends here in Vancouver.

Some people don’t believe in resolutions, but I think it’s nice to have something to think about throughout the year; something to improve upon or strive for.

My 2008 resolution was to speak my mind. I’ve always had a tendancy to lose my voice in relationships. I would lose who I was in an effort to make the other person happy. It left me unsatisfied and miserable. I wanted to change that, and I really think that I’ve accomplished this. I feel like I have an equal say in my relationship with BF, and in my everyday life, my motto has been that if I have the energy to complain about something, then I have the energy to try and change it. That makes me feel more productive in life, and reduces the amount of complaining I do. :)

My 2009 resolution is to try and not be so shy. With my friends and family, I am quite outgoing – but put me in a situation with new people, or in a big group, and I clam up. I feel awkward. I am sooooo much better one-on-one or with small groups. I don’t really know how to talk to people or start up conversations at parties. It all feels fake to me. Like it’s an act and the dialogue is just part of it. I need to get past the artificial stage.

And I can really psych myself out too. I will start stressing out about who I can talk to, who I’m going to know, what I’m going to say, how long we’ll be there for, etc. So when I’m actually in the situation, I get tired from stressing out, self conscious because I don’t know anyone, and grumpy because I’m not having fun and it seems like everyone knows everyone else, and everybody is talking and laughing and having a good time but me.

I think I’m getting better though. When I was home for Christmas, I spent a lot of time with BF and his relatives. I didn’t necessarily talk all that often, but I felt comfortable around them and I occassionally joined in on the conversation, which is a big step for me. Usually I feel self conscious and I say nothing.

So, we’ll see how I do this year.

Are you making a New Year’s Resolution?

2 Responses to “What’s your New Year’s Resolution?”

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1. Give Me Back My Five Bucks » Tuesday Miscellaneous says:

   Saturday, March 6, 2010 - 08:49pm at 8:16 pm

   [...] you know, my New Year’s resolution was to try and not be so shy, so I’m going to work on that. It’s hard though, to go [...]

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2. Give Me Back My Five Bucks » Sticking to my New Year’s Resolution says:

   Saturday, March 6, 2010 - 08:23pm at 8:57 pm

   [...] with his friends and I am nervous. To the point of having anxiety. BF keeps reminding me about my New Year’s Resolution (he really wants me to get to know his friends better), and I know he’s right, but whenever [...]

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