Showing the BF my blog: 2 weeks later

As a follow-up to my post about becoming more open about this blog, it’s been about 2 weeks since I first showed BF this website. At first, I remember being really embarrassed and self-conscious about revealing my finances. I felt like I was showing him my diary, which I suppose, is essentially what I was doing. It’s just that, instead of hiding it under my bed, I’ve been hiding it on the internet.

It’s a weird feeling to open up to all of you, and I’m still coming to terms with the strange sensation I get every time I publish a post. It’s weird getting judged and criticized and supported by complete strangers. It’s terrifying to write about what I want to achieve, and the decisions that I’ve made with my life and my money – because if I slip up or I do something wrong, it’s not just me who knows. Everyone knows. Everything I do is being judged. And people aren’t afraid to say what’s on their mind, especially behind the anonymity of a computer screen.

Even though I’m not planning on ever showing any of my friends or family, I’m glad I showed BF this blog. I really am. He’s been nothing but supportive and encouraging about my financial situation. It’s been tough to keep such a large part of my life a secret to so many people I know, so it’s nice to be able to open up share it with someone. It’s hard to find a person like that – someone you can trust so easily, so I consider myself to be a pretty lucky PF blogger right now. :)