You have got to be kidding me!!!

It’s like the world is out there to mock me; like they’re just waiting until the perfect moment to pull my pants down in front of everyone on the day I’m wearing my big granny undies.

Today I just found out the PR/Media Relations Manager is leaving the PT job I work for. It’s not my boss’ job, but it’s her direct colleague, and someone I know very well as a person, a former classmate (he was one year ahead of me), and as a boss. Both his job, as well as my boss’ job … either of those jobs are my absolute DREAM JOBS, except for with an different organization.

I called my boss and asked her if it was true, and that he was indeed leaving. She confirmed with me that his last day would be sometime next week, and asked if I would apply for the position. I told her that I just accepted another position last week, so most likely I wouldn’t.

Here’s the thing: the PR job with the organization comes with more responsibility (than my new job) and is in the direct line of work I want to be in for my career. BUT, it pays less. A lot less. The last I heard, it was $15-20k/year less. And I’m sure the salary would be negotiable to some extent, but there’s no way it would even come close to matching the salary I’d be making right now at my new job. If I took the job, I would be working more hours for less money, and I could kiss my goal of home ownership goodbye for the duration I stayed with them.

That being said, I just committed myself to the new company. How unethical is it of me to even want to apply for this PR position, let alone take it if they offer it to me? And when would I ever get such a fabulous chance again to work for the an organization I believe in, in the line of work that I’ve been dreaming of? Could I still make it into this line of work down the road, without the experience this job would provide?

I called the BF and he thinks I should stay with the new job because of the money. He says by staying with the new job, I would still be able to work part-time at the PT job, like I have been for the past 2.5 years, and chances are that job will come up again in the future because it doesn’t pay very well. He also said I could apply for the job and just see if I have what it takes to get interviewed. Although chances are I’d get an interview because organizations like that like to hire from within, and I have all the experience the old PR guy had when he first got the job 2 years ago since we graduated from the same program (and I might have even more experience because I’ve spent the past 8 months working for a somewhat related company).

Oh, life. This really isn’t fair.